had the worst headache tonight. got the dependent to sleep at around 8ish, she went down fast. dh was off playing basketball, and i got some tv time to myself. saw the end of the apprentice...and no smallville on earlier...our cw channel was just a black screen. omarosa...gosh. nuff said. celebrity apprentice...haha. it's truly a social experiment. saw the premiere of lipstick jungle and was switching between that and whatever the show on abc is at the same time. lipstick jungle made me miss nyc...and a version of my life in an alternate reality.
so i just realized that i've forgotten to practice violin all week. and that's the impetus for this post. i've been so focused on H's b-day party & other stuff, that i've not practiced. i'm supposed to play some chinese songs in front of hundreds of ppl for this chinese new year celebration this saturday and i'm not ready! the coastal bend chinese assoc asked me to play, and it's not like i know them or they know me...so if i suck...that's BAD!!! it's like a nightmarish "i'm not ready for the test b/c i haven't studied" anxiety. eek! one piece is a-okay b/c i have the melody in my head, but the other piece...i was supposed to listen to it all week and come up with an arrangement, which i haven't done! ahhh!
and tomorrow is supposed to be devoted to cake baking and decorating. and party preparations for saturday. there is not enough time to do everything! i've been editing photos for the past few days in photoshop for the CD that i'm supposed to make for my clients by tomorrow. then i've been researching sugar-free cake recipes & frostings...went grocery shopping and ran errands and i totally forgot about practicing!!! my brain?! where is my brain?!?!
i needed to delegate some of the party stuff, but i didn't. i wanted to do it all b/c i want it really perfect...though it doesn't matter at all b/c she's only turning one year old and doesn't know the difference! ha!
i dunno why i can't focus well...my head hurts...brain feels swollen.
ok...
probably from lack of sleep...
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One at a time. No stress! :)
I know. Much easier said than done. That's why I hate volunteering to perform. It's so extremely time consuming and highly stressful. That's also I switched to guitar. It's so easy to make up lyrics to some song, and then sing and play. People are generally much more impressed and it's so much less work than a "real" musical performance. Why don't you switch to the guitar?
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